In my tweet for my last post, I wrote “I get by with a little help from my friends.” And I do. Seriously. I don’t know what I would do without my amazing friends.
I lean on several to get the stuff out of my head. I talk for hours about my fears and troubles and craziness. And they listen and give comfort and give advice. They’re so amazing. Sometimes I feel like I’m vomiting words, trying to make sense of my life and how I feel and what I will do, and then I apologize for monopolizing the conversations and (lately) always being a downer. Because they are awesome, they tell me it’s ok and this is how they support me.
If that isn’t enough to have them lend their strength and wisdom, they try their best to take care of me.
My Favorite Freshman drove two hours to be with me on the night I learned of the ruling. Every time she visits, she thrusts clothes and random stuff for the boys and me into my arms. She insists on feeding me and donating to the inevitable garage sale coming my way. She’s promised to drive two hours to sit for me if I ever need it. Seriously, how lucky am I? For Mother’s Day, she bought me a family pass to the zoo because “you need to be able to be the fun parent too.”
Another friend insisted on taking me out to the movies the other week because I needed to get out and have fun. I tried to give her money for the ticket, and she waved it away with “it was my idea.”
I could not function without Wally and Cat. I know if I needed them, any time of day, they would move heaven and earth to help me.
An old college friend messaged me out of the blue, asking to talk. We hadn’t talked on the phone for years. (Stupid Facebook for making us believe we know what was going on in other people’s lives.) We talked for several hours, and whenever I tried to turn the conversation to her, she would insist that she called to hear about my life. Then to top off her awesomeness, she sent me a cookbook for cooking for one or two servings. I thanked her, and she told me she did it to honor my new life and it would give me a reason to stay in contact to tell her how the recipes taste. And to think, when we met as freshmen in college, she thought I was a bitch and we would never get along. (She was only half right.)
Then there’s the Unicorn. Who Tornado A blacklisted on my phone, so we fell out of touch for a few weeks. She’s so awesome. I’m so happy for her, and her texts make me so happy. Then she sent me a whole bunch of stickers and candy and salsa spice mixes. Yea surprises! Now if only I could get to the post office to mail all the stuff I’ve been hording for her.
I’m lucky to have more awesome friends. I know there are several that if I just called, they would talk with me for hours as though time never passed, and if I needed anything, they would totally be there for me. I told Wally I was blessed. Then I laughed because I hate using the word “blessed.”
For a while, I felt really guilty for being so lucky. Then one day it dawned on me that if roles were reversed, I would be doing the same thing. Before I was poor, I was treating my friends out for dinners and movies and buying them little “smile” gifts. Before I became really poor, I was sending stickers, cards, and presents when I could. I look forward to the days I can do that again. In the meantime, I’m always happy to listen and console. I’m always happy to babysit and feed people.
Even though a lot of parts of my life suck right now, I’ve got this amazing group of people supporting me. If I keep my eyes on the prize, nothing is going to stop me.